National service

I am not the kind of lass who would love to be involved in such things, yes i am talking about the national service, everyone is getting really busy and crazy about checking their names via online and sms, i got some mental issue and i can't accept the fact if i checked and i found my name is on the list swear to god i'm gonna die! The official website is down at the moment due to maybe some heavy traffic, i already sent a text checking my name but i haven't receive any feedback, you have no idea how do i feel, being depressed and miserable at the same time, i just wish my name is not in the list, i can't check my name if i am on the list for a moment, what's on my mind at this very moment is what if later i got a text from the operator telling me i am chosen to attend the national service.?


* Hallelujah i am not one of them! :D